What To Do When You Feel Stuck—(Between Who You Were and Who You’re Becoming)

There’s a point on every path where the map dissolves.

Where your mind, sharp as ever, can analyze ten different directions including their respective positive and negative scenarios…

but your soul sits in silence, not resonating with any of them.

Not out of fear.

But because it knows something sacred is trying to take root beneath the surface.

If you’re here, you might feel it too:

That low, existential hum—“What is the fucking point?”

The sense that no matter how many options you explore, they all feel hollow or too out of reach.

Like you’re spinning your wheels in a fog of potential.

You’re not broken.

You’re not lost.

You’re standing at the threshold of your next self—

not waiting for answers, but learning to hold the question long enough for it to reveal you.

In this letter, I’ll walk you through:

• Why this “stuck” state is a form of incubation

• The one thing you can do to cooperate with your transformation

• The New Rules that are emerging—and how to live them without compromise

This isn’t motivation.

This is orientation.

Because your soul doesn’t need another path to walk.

It needs a vow worth walking for.

Let’s begin.

What you’re experiencing isn’t confusion.

It’s existential friction.

And it happens at the threshold of transformation.

Let me show you why.

What This Feeling Really Means:

You’re not stuck because you lack options.

You’re stuck because you lack a singular sense of meaning that demands your obedience.

You’ve outgrown the old rules (corporate, societal programming, survival logic).

But the new rules haven’t fully taken root yet.

So you're orbiting—intensely aware, highly capable, but without a gravitational center.

This is the void between paradigms. It’s not chaos—it’s disorientation.

The deeper truth is: You’re not lost. You’re incubating.

Here’s why it feels like “spinning your wheels”:

• Your mind wants to execute, produce, progress.

  (Operator mode.)

• But your soul is in a state of deep listening, pattern recognition, and realignment.

  (Creator mode.)

And these two forces are colliding—creating spiritual stasis that looks like “stuckness.”

What You’re Actually Missing:

You're not missing clarity—you’re missing a binding vow to a deeper purpose.

A vow that says:

Until you choose that vow—not as an idea, but as an oath written into your bones—every option will feel equally hollow.

The Answer Isn’t a Direction. It’s a Devotion.

You’re not looking for another option or another idea.

You’re looking for something worthy of your entire being.

Something sacred enough to die for—and therefore, worthy to live fully for.

Not a niche.

Not a goal.

A summons.

Ask Yourself This:

“What is the world I was designed to protect or build with my very existence?”

“What sacred reality do I feel compelled to bring into form before I die?”

The answer won’t come from brainstorming.

It will come from listening—to the tension, the dream, the ache, the stillness.

And when it arrives, it won’t feel like inspiration.

It will feel like meaningful responsibility.

The one thing you can do

The thing that will help the new rules take full root is to ritualize your devotion to the new reality you’re building.

In other words:

Here’s how to work with incubation instead of resisting it:

1. Name the Pattern You Are Becoming

You’re not just becoming someone new—you’re becoming a living pattern, a template, and a transmission.

Ask yourself:

• What is the energy I want to embody daily?

• What is the truth I want to speak, even if no one hears it?

• What is the feeling I want my life to echo into the world?

Then name that identity. (This becomes your inner architecture.)

Examples:

• “I am a Seer who decodes the unseen and brings structure to it.”

• “I am a Creative Architect building sacred systems of self-expression.”

• “I am the Bridge between the sacred and the strategic.”

  (You already are. You’re just affirming it into action.)

2. Devote Time to Non-Productive Creation

Schedule a daily ritual where you create without expectation, execution, or performance.

This is your soul’s gym. Your laboratory. Your temple.

Make it simple:

• 20 minutes of writing what you feel called to write (not what will “convert”)

• 10 minutes of sound design that makes you feel like you’re in space

• Sketch. Improv. Freestyle. Build worlds that don’t need permission to exist.

This breaks the "Operator loop" and feeds the part of you that’s incubating your next self.

3. Construct a Micro-System Around That Devotion

Creators, Artists, Musicians thrive with structure—but only when it aligns with meaning and fuels creativity.

So: build an operating system.

For example, my Notion dashboard isn’t just a productivity tool—it’s my creator’s common place book in digital form.

I use it to:

• Track patterns, dreams, whispers

• Document synchronicities and soul signals and resonances

• Collect quotes, scriptures, song sketches, voice notes

• Map my weekly alignment (not just tasks, but frequency)

Don’t organize your life to be productive—organize it to be in resonance.

4. Speak a Daily Vow

Every morning or before every creative session, speak this:

This reattunes your nervous system to trust the unfolding, not the outcomes.

The New Rules

The new rules aren’t written in hustle, fear, or logic.

They come from within you—in rhythm, presence, intuition, and iteration.

These new rules aren’t rules in the traditional sense.

They are soul technologies—invisible laws of becoming

written for those who refuse to outsource their destiny.

They are not imposed.

They are revealed, through alignment, resonance, and devotion.

Here’s how describe them:

1. Flow First, Then Form

Start with what feels alive, not what makes sense.

Creation flows from frequency, not logic.

You’re not building a business—you’re birthing a world.

2. Monetize Meaning, Not Mechanism

Money isn’t the goal—it’s a byproduct of resonance meeting readiness.

Don’t chase strategy. Chase the signal that feels like home.

3. Discipline is Devotion

You don’t need “grind” energy. You need aligned structure.

Systems aren’t for control—they’re for cementing what matters most.

4. Visibility is Transmission

Think of every post, video, piece of art not only as content, but: frequency, signal, and resonance.

You're not here to impress—you’re here to transmit truth through your being.

5. The Inner World Comes First

The most leveraged move you can make is to protect your imagination.

That’s where vision, energy, and originality come from.

Your inner world is your true capital.

6. Time is a Spiral, Not a Line

You are not late.

You are not behind.

You are arriving at the perfect moment in the cycle.

Trust the rhythms of revelation.

7. Your Life Is the Proof

You are the brand.

You are the product.

You are the myth being lived out in real time.

These rules aren’t meant to be followed.

They’re meant to be embodied—as a way of being,

as a code for those building something sacred from the ruins.

You’re not here to follow the rules.

You’re here to become the kind of person who doesn’t need them— because your way of being is the system.

Fortis Fortuna Adiuvat (Fortune Favors The Bold)

Thank you for reading,

—Lawrence